time to face the true

recently think a lot think. friend, girl, money, and bla bla bla.

yesterday mid night while on my way home. finally make up my mine. is time to wake up and face the true. all is thank to James Blunt ' you' r beautiful'. this song wake me up. and also thank for jasper give me the chance to smoke as i requested, but no more in the future

friends

those day, friends i started feel very sad. those friends i knew them more than 10 years even some of them almost 20 years. but now they still like that. i really don't know how to join them. maybe i already getting old or mature. sorry to you guys. i really can't join anymore. you can say me selfish, lan c , or anything, i won't fight. i really can't understand what you guys think for the future. honestly i really boring to have my life like your all. just feel like don't have the true of myself. this 4 years i feel like our distant is going to getting far and far. maybe this is the way of my life, just like is wrote in the previous blog. even those i can't join hyou guy but i will join for the activites, atleast still can get back the feeling while we in young little time.

girl

finally found a girl. this girl really give a a different feeling that i never had before. facing her i can really show her the truely of my (is not mean i not truelly facing others girls just dun have that kind of feeling). this feeling make me feel so natural, so familiar, so confortable. i really like it. although i didnt know her long, and also know her much but i really feel happy while having time with her, even those just a short moment but i really mean it. this time i really need to wake up. no more lazy no more excute, no more foolish stuff. all i want now is have her. from today i will start to try my best, even i a chicken boy. atleast i had try if not there got no reason said i love her.

money

moeny actually not that big problem. just need to plan nicely, and keep on step by step then should be no problem


anyway thank to those friends who worry. actually no need worry. when i need people lishen my story i will talk. those things i still can handdle. just need some time to analise myself only.

this my words .

thank for worry and reading.